I was recollecting in my mind how my story with voyeurism began, and I realized that during the process I have gone through different stages, which I organized in the followinglist (with no specific order) :
0 - not knowing of its existence
1 - just enjoying online content
2 - the adrenaline rush of the first simple catches
3 - normalization, the adrenaline rush is lost
4 - Becoming bolder, starting to follow targets, planning hunts
5 - Test and master new techniques
6 - getting to know the forum (for me this was something special, for the first time I shared this side of myself with someone and I wanted your approval, so from here on my shots were no longer just for me)
7 - crossing the line. Taking shots at personal moments that could jeopardize my reputation. Being cocky about my abilities, and shooting at times when I knew I have little or no control over the situation.
I always went through these stages in one of these EMOTIONAL STATES
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without moral questioning
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moral justification (these are my desires, desires are natural, etc.)
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desensibilization, women become targets
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state of doubt, I don’t know to what extent I agree with the morality of this activity
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paranoia, fear of being discovered and its consequences
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acceptance, accepting what I am, what I want and what I do
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overcome, control over the impulse to shoot, knowing how to identify the impulse and the risk, in order to avoid it becoming a simple reflex. Being able to shoot with more confidence. Trying to be invisible so as not to create discomfort or a bad time for anyone
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Stop. I was never able to do it.
Do you agree with my list?
What levels have you experienced?
Do you think I missed any?
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I felt like i fall in the same list of how your voyeurism started. Im kinda getting back into the exitment of it though, now that im working more.
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So you gonna share this with your therapist or something? I have enough personal guilt and shame over this activity.
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Do you find that bad or good?
No bro, you are my therapy ^^
This forum is the only place where I share the shit.
I don’t think a therapist can do much for us, because there is no info about it. A 1/3 of the male population may be a potential creep, and nobody knows about us, no info at all.
So I’m trying to help my bros, understand myself, and I do think it is a very interesting matter…
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No info about it? Have you ever heard of Freud? Everything from infancy can influence a male sex drive and I’m absolutely certain therapists deal with this for those brave enough to share it. That said, I think it’s cool you’re bringing up the difficult part of the hobby to discuss. Most guys write it off as “biology” and never think twice about it.
Edit: Google Voyeuristic Disorder and you’ll get a lot more info on the condition.
I understand what you are saying, what I mean is that because we are men and we do not share much of what we feel, and voyeurism is a recently extended practice, compared to other issues that can generate stress in a similar way, there are no studies on the subject or definitive conclusions.
Dude I gonna share something that is happening recently
I am having headaches when I get a good cap
I think is my brain making an effort for me to stop
Because It’s dangerous and I wouldn’t stop, I am addicted
I feel frustrated the days I can’t cap
It’s the same type of headache I had when I jerked off too much or too fast
Tension headache
I always enjoyed being a voyeur, when I was a child I spyed girls
But I started creepshots only about 2 years ago, when I saw a neighbor with awesome booty in the groceries store, I had to take a shot, I felt guilty and deleted the picture after jerk off
Last year I started creepshoting more seriously, invested in a decent phone and creepshoted pretty regularly, my wife almost caught me once
And I tried to share with close friends, but they aren’t as pervert as me, so finding this community was good to finally find a place I can share with someone
But that’s it, due to this headaches I may have to stop (which is sad, I am moving to a better neighborhood closer to good opportunities and my wife is going to work more)
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I think the headaches could be signals from your body, like stress stomachache.
The point you are sucks, because you are living the extremes, leave it or going all the way.
Use the winter time for a break.
Family and friend are first.
Yesterday I went for a cap after five days of abstinence, and I noticed I lost all patience for my gf, I also lost my sexual appetite for her, I just wanted the fantasy with the girls in my shots.
Anyways, thanks for shareing bro!
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