On the weekend I’m heading to a music festival with friends.
It’s outdoors, it will be hotter than two foxes fucking in a forest fire and there will be endless sea of bodacious bodies wearing very little. I’ve been before and goddamn some of these women are jaw dropping and just an inch of fabric away from being completely nude, the shortest shorts, fishnets, well you can imagine
Somehow I’ve only just realized… it’s gonna be really fucking tough to resist the urge to cap.
I really don’t want to feel that inner conflict as I try to enjoy the music while constantly seeing ‘missed opportunities’
It’s bad enough at work but at a festival I just wanna enjoy with my boys… I don’t want to be trying to fight off this feeling
It’s been a few weeks since I’ve capped and I’m pretty proud of the fact considering I was straight up addicted to it for a while. Today I almost slipped up and got out my phone when I saw a worldclass latina wearing the shortest shorts strut in front of me… but it’s as if the universe intervened because quite literally as soon as the thought to cap crossed my mind I ran into a family friend who doesn’t even live anywhere near that part of town. What the FUCK were the chances? I was at the shops all day and the one moment I was about to break my streak and cap I saw someone I knew
Back to fighting the urges to cap… I’ve tried a few things.
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I’ve reminded myself that there are always more ‘fish in the sea’ as in there’s someone sexier around the corner, even if it takes a few weeks or months to round the corner
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I’ve reminded myself that at the end of the day even the best caps are nothing more than pixels. Nothing flesh and blood. Jacking off to pixels can only be so good.
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Tried to remind myself that the feeling of having total control over my urges beats the adrenaline rush of capping or the shortlived pleasure of jacking the beanstalk
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Reminding myself it’s an endless pursuit and will only end with dissatisfaction or immense regret as I’m busted
It helps a bit but the urges are still there
To those of you who were into capping before meeting a partner… did having a lady in your life reduce the urges to cap other women at all?
My impulse to cap is always strongest when my life is in the gutter…the more full and fulfilling my life is (especially dating life) the less I think to cap and the better I am at brushing it off ‘missed opportunities’
A few strategies I’m weighing up …
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Whenever I feel the urge to cap a smoking hot subject, approach her and try to ask her out (unless she’s clearly w a partner)
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Allow myself to cap just one or two absolutely jaw dropping subjects to hopefully prevent the feeling of ‘missed opportunities’ without derailing things or drawing too much suspicion
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Try to avoid gazing around at people and just stare at the stage as much as possible…not ideal but at work I have to keep my eyes to my store only or I’ll be bound to see sexy women walking past where it’s not only risky but impossible to cap them
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Try to eye fuck them / remember them without capping (never works)
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Pop molly and hopefully be feeling so good I don’t even think to cap
Any advice?